आईटी Cries

I have loved you from afar
I have loved you from a distance
I have loved you silently
I have loved you distinctly,

But my heart is wounded and it cries...

I have loved you honestly
I have loved you mercily
I have loved you greatfully
I have loved you heartily,

But my heart is wounded and it cries...

I have loved you, only you
I have kept you awhile ago
I joyfully adored you
I have sealed my heart for only you,

But my heart is wounded and it cries...

I have opened my heart 'bout my feelings
I have told most 'bout my feelings
Some of my friends keeps me from fighting
And my love for you keeps me going,

But my heart is wounded and it cries...

We've became a good, good friends
Messaging each other every now and then
Saying good night, greeting good morning
Why am I unsatisfied?

... And my heart is wounded and it cries

And I decided to tell you
That more than friends is what I want us to.
You looked at me and smiled
You held and kissed my hand,

But my heart is wounded and it cries...

Tears fell down from my eyes
But not from happiness but of lonely cries
Because I told you I love you
And you answered;
I love you too,
but only friendship is what I can give you
Because my heart and love belongs to someone else
And that someone else isn't you...
But even though my friend, I love you.

And my heart is wounded and it cries...

Love Can't Be Enough

You've given your everything
everything that you have

But love can't be enough...

You've shed a million tears
and share a thousand fears

But love can't be enough...

You've dream a whole new world together
Smile and share the laughter,

But love can't be enough...

You held each others hands
and thought it's 'til the end of time

But love can't be enough...

You've tried to make it work
sacrifices are even worst
choices you have made
taking and took the risks,

But love can't be enough...

You've open your heart so widely
accepted everything so easily
crashed your scolding agony
to be with whom you thought "somebody"

But love can't be enough...

You've fought and won the fight
of gossips, struggles, betrayals and even lies
of fooling and wondrous alibi's

But love can't be enough...

You thought it's different
and swore not to play the same old game
but though it felt so shameless real,
it felt everything is clear,
it felt everything is true,
it felt everything is right,
but even everything has it's end
and that's when the pain begins.

Love can't be enough,
'coz everything has it's so called....
"END"

'Til the end of time <3 <3

Till the end of time

You looked at me like I'm your angel,
You smiled at me like I'm your happiness,
You talked to me in a soft baritone voice,
You touched me---oh, so gentle, oh!so warm...
You kissed me and dot.dot.dot---
were all my nerves are gone?

I've never been like this before---
I was never a statue or was never a robot,
but why with you I feel like I'm both?
Could it be because my love you have caught?

Question, questions, questions! dot. dot. dot.
You looked, you smiled, you talked, you touched, you kissed...
I looked, I smiled, I talked, I touched, I kissed---
---we made love--- was it love???
Yes, I guess yes! the answer is "YES"!!!

Enough of questions, enough of fear
We'll be together must be soon or never!
I want you here---
I want you near---
I want you mine and mine alone
I will love you from today
'till the break of all dawn---

I'll be yours--- pledge of my heart...
Please don't break it, don't tore it apart.
I love you---and I want you mine.
We'll be together 'til the end of time...

Just Love

Strange as it may seem
But I think I’m in love, in love again.
I’m not really sure if this is right
But at the moment there’s never wrong to right.

His hand clasped mine, what a feeling!
His lips brushed mine, am burning in flame
Seduce me, free me and feel me
Just don’t tell me if I’m only living with my fantasy.

The wildest of my imagination came true
It all came true when I made love to you.
It was so good.
It was burning with desire.
It was a random longing for you to stay inside.
It felt so good.
There’s nothing I can actually ask but more.
Damn!!! More…

I still don’t know what’s in to you
But hell to that now I have you.
I don’t care what the other people would say
Damn! I’ll leave everything for you,
And I’ll stay ‘til our hair turns gray.

WHY??? :)

I wish I can comfort you tonight
Hold your hand, hug you tight
Listen to everything you wanted to say
Wipe and kiss your tears away.

Wondering why I haven't notice you before
Now I have this feeling so obscure
I should've just waste a simple glance
If only not, we may be together at once.

Destiny? well, hell! is this your frame?
Are you trying to manipulate or play a game
Tell you straight losing is not my game
But winning and conquer all in the end.

If it was destiny who decides us to met
Well it's my choice and step to do the rest
What may happen or would happen isn't destiny's fate
But my longings and could be our decissions meet.

Hell gossips
Hell the past
Trash them, dump them like a mashed squash
What's important is the present I now have
And the feeling that I now have inside.

It may be real or may be not
It may be attraction or could be love
But damn I long to hold his hand
Kiss his mouth when he talks a simple line.

Why his eyes looks so vivid
And his words full of courage
An unusual feeling I need to comprehend
Damn this! I'll seize the moment or apprehend!!!

Death is a Gift

My voice is trembling, my eyes are in tear.
Alone in my dim room, never felt any fear.
I've questioned God, I'm full of anger.
Why did he take you so early my dear...

Why did He gave you to me?
When after a day you'll be just a memory.
God, why is it you took him away?
Why didn't you just let him stay by me?

Why does my test full of sorrows and pains
Why are my angers burst out again
What is the message you wanted to tell
Why won't you take me instead to finish thy thrill.

Then I fell asleep still my eyes are in tear
I dreamth of an angel singing lullabies to my ear
Someone had spoken touching my heart with care
Then all of my anger vanished that made me more stronger.

Now I understand why He gave me it all
Because He loves me so and He wants me to call
To call thy His name ' coz I've forgot him before
I am his child and that he loves me so sure!

I come to realize that death is a gift
For thru death you'll be happy, eternal indeed.
No worries, no pains, no sorrows you would felt
'Coz in his kingdom you will dwell, eternally happy forever.

Darkness's beauty

The darkness of the night
Can never hide the beauty of the evenin' sky...

It will never be a hindrance
For me to have a happy sigh...

As the deep blue ocean
Would never be denied of life...

Your smile will continue
Tobe my majestic tower of light...

As the sun continue to shine
And bring bright colors and hue...

Your smile will continue astound me,
It will stick on me like a glue...

SOME

Some people in time quit when they fall
But some people stay up, continue it all
Some people don't know what they've lost forever
But some people would retrieve now or never

Those low grades could boost up in time
Some people won't care what they'll have in line
But some people still strive yo make it great and straight
Just hope and pray that it won't be too late

Some people wear a heart of gold
They help those who need young and old
But some people won't care what's there for others
They can never be open to show up their colors

Some people are born great leaders at their years
They conquer the world and each others fears
But some people are their to change the earth
For the better in life you know what it's worth

We live in different places, in different ways
In different community and human race
Some have friends and great buds
But all is equal in the eyes of God.

ESSENCE OF LOVE

In love with someone isn't sure the right
In love with someone doesn't know how to fight
Eager to be with him tonight
But longings are too far can't take the flight.

My journey is about to start
Maybe now, maybe tonight
But the fear that I now have
It's frightening! what's the essence of love?

Tell me the essence of love
Tell me it's definition
'Cause mine may not right
Tell me it's contrast
So I know when to give-up or when to fight.

Now I can't emphasize
If the love still remains or it fades
'Cause if love knows no boundary
Why I feel I'm bound to forget him this way?

I wasn't happy of what I found out
But it's nobody's fault
But I feel so scared and I am really afraid
Well, forget it, disregard the thought and move ahead.

I am still alive and still living
I am still alive and still hoping
I am still alive and still dreaming
I am still alive and still loving

I'm still loving though I don't know if it's the same. :-(

We'll be together in my dream

It all started with a joke
A joke that went real after a period of time
I admired you by who you are
I adored you sincerely true.

It was all ok at the start
But I didn't realize you came to break my heart.
I did everything you asked,
I did everything you want me to
But it seems not enough.

What went wrong?
when I thought you've fallen for me too?
What went wrong?
When I thought everything is true

I'm in a hasten feet if you need me
I am always in a hurry when you call me
I am always honest when you asked me
I am always true of what I feel for you.

I said I love you
But you replied you don't
I said I need you
But you said you won't...

What went wrong?
What do I need to do for you to love me too?
I feel stupid sometimes but I don't mind
I feel like a fool sometimes but I don't care.

I don't care because I know this feeling is real
I love you even if you turned me down
I still love you
Until this very period of time.

I'm still hoping that someday, one day I'll hear
I'll hear your voice calling my name
I'll hear your word whispering me softly
"I love you, I'll aways be."

This dream may come true or not
And even if your here to break my heart
I don't care wether you dumped me dear
As long as I am true of what I truly feel.

Seeing you is enough to make me smile
Seeing you is enough to make me go on dreaming
Seeing you smiling is hope fulfilling
That one day we'll be together in my dream.

Truth or Dare

Let's play a game, it's called truth or dare
One will spin the bottle
To whom it points is his/her call
It requires no number as long as will participate.

MUSIC PLAYS:
You said your inlove
Your love can't be damage
Co'z your love is strong and not weak
Big storm don't ever anticipate.

GAME CONTINUES:
I said "truth" but the rest said "DARE!"
Damn! it's sounds fun but in a way unfair.
The bottle spins then it stops
It pointed to you, you was shocked.

MUSIC CONTINUES:
You was so confident that your inlove
You said, you want to see her face
everyday and every night
But why your face turns red you didn't realize....???

GAME CONTINUED:
And the dare is to kiss! on the lips!!!
Wether the girl will reply or not
10 seconds do your best!
Forget the kiss when your lips parted.

You came closer and whispered...
Would it be ok?
The answer is yes, so go on and do the kiss
Your lips was so cold and you trembled.

LYRIC CONTINUED:
You was so sure that your in love
But why is it your fallin' apart?
Are you that shallow lover
Skin deep and not that really deep...

GAME CONTINUED:
10 seconds had gone so fast
Your catching your breath, so why is that?
Never even responded to your kiss
So why the heck you trembled like a kid?

You said sorry
The answer was;
"It's ok, where having a game
And we're here to play'.
Don't think about it much,
Go back to your place and relax.

MUSIC CONTINUED:
Why I saw that glimpse on your eyes?
Stealing glances while at once
Don't you tell me that you like me
Or don't even dare to say you looooove me...

GAME CONTINUED:
The bottle spins again
And it's your turn to command and revenge :-)
For your dare was to kiss and you did
Now the bottle stops to whom it pointed?
Well, to me, and the dare was to kiss you back.

After all, I wasn't shocked
Because the game is used to be like that
I came near you and you whispered....

"I'll try all my best not to fall in love with you
Please, don't fall in love with me too."

I answered: "No, I wouldn't because I'm already
In love with someone else."

I said those words with a smile on my face.
You said ok, but your smile looks weary.

MUSIC CONTINUED:
You was so sure that your inlove
But now your asking me too much
Why the heck a stupid shot
Trying to hold my hand in the dark.

Are you sure that your in love?
But why is it your falling apart?
Don't dare tell me that you love me
Cause I would just smile and say:
"FORGET ME BABY."

GAME CONTINUED:
I did a smacked for a second
You hold my hand with your cold, cold hand.
They shouted for a real kiss
And so I did their request.

You responded like; I want more!
But 10 seconds is done, no more!
Lucky you are for this game
But take note, this is only a game.

What happened tonight stays tonight
Tomorrow, nothing happened
And we are all friends and still friends
The kiss is just a kiss and will remain only until tonight.

THE MUSIC CONTINUED:
So don't you tell me that you love me
Don't you dare say you like me
Oh, so sad you would be baby
Cause I'll just say;
Forgeeeet...
Forgeeeeeeeet...
Forget about me.

Forget about "ME"

Hmm
Whoaaa
Oohhh
Yeahh

You said it wasn't
Gonna be like
It was before
Then it happened again
Pushing me back
Out the door
Thought it would be
For real this time
Love me forget
About the signs
So now what do I do
Now, that I know
That we're through

Wish that I
Could move on
Can't let go
It's too strong
Just like that
And then you're gone
Is this how
You wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears
Right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

[Chorus:]
Why don't you love me
The way I loved you
It feels so crazy
Cause I dunno
What I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
Cause I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna
Stick around
Then, baby
Forget about me

Too late, sorry
I didn't even
Have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby
I don't understand
Gave you everything
You asked for
And was ready
To give you a lot more
I would've given
The world
Right in the palm
Of your hand

Wish that I
Could move on
Can't let go
It's too strong
Just like that
And then you're gone
Is this how
You wanted it to be
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears
Right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape
The misery

[Chorus]

Boy
My heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away
From all the lies
It's up to you
Cause heaven knows
I've tried
Tell me
You're still in love
Yeahhhh
Ohh

[Chorus]

Forget about me
I really loved you...

Can we do it once again?

Submerging of this dreadful ecstasy
Drowning by the song of melancholy
Floating over horizon of emptiness
Saturated by the longing of wanting you more and more.

I want to see your face,
To see your smile and feel your kiss
But I'm swamped over this feeling
And can't even move where I'm laying.

Trying to control my feeling
Coz my heart is now aching/confusing
Not knowing the rationale of this feeling
Damn!!! I don't love you but why the longing???

I wanted to taste that lips again
Those sweet sensation obscured my being
I don't want you to see it, don't want you to feel it
But damn! deep in my heart I'm concealing.

A kiss that blew me far, far away
Over the horizon and over reality
A kiss that makes me long for more
I almost forgot that I'm not free anymore.

Can we atleast do it again?
Just feel free, care free to submerge of the feeling
But no strings attached and tomorrow forget everything?

But in reality we can never forget everything,
It's just buried and somehow,somewhere hiding
But if we have time...
Can we do it once again???

Give me a Break

Life just sometimes so unjust
Your working hard early morning 'til late at night.
Can't they feel that I also need rest?
To rest my mind of these stressful deeds.

Do notice that I'm doing all you've asked
Even if my body, sometimes seem to give up.
I do and did everything in a way you like
But you never notice that somehow only a "BREAK" is all I need.

Working time is over
But thinking 'bout tomorrow
And what would be your order
Life just sometimes so unfair.

I want to sleep sound and fine
But your voice keeps echoing inside my mind
Can't you hear my heart complaining?
I need a break!!! but my voice isn't that quick!

I do love what I'm doing
But sometimes, too much is what your asking
Hear my cry... to voice it out I'm too shy

Though appreciations I accepted
But break is what I needed.
Just a some few and real rest
To close my eyes and feel no worries.

No voice commanding me
Waking up early let me atleast be free
All I need is a little break
'Coz my body and mind really needs rest...

Give me a break!!!

PLEDGE

I promise to stay by your side
Whatever may happen even obstacles may arrive.
I promise to be with you
When you feel unhappy and feeling blue.

I promise to stand by your side
When there's something you have and needs to fight.
I promise to help you through
Of all the things that you wanted to do.

I promise not to break your heart
Not to make you cry not to break your stride
If your up to something
And needs to be done right.

I promise to trust you with all my heart
No questions to ask and no reasons to trash
For you, yes, you my love is all that I want
Only you can fill this missing piece of my heart.

I promise to love you and you alone
'Til my heart can no longer feel how to love
I promise to give myself to you
From today and until you want it to.

My pledge of my love cannot be broken
For my heart recognizes only your name
Your touch still lingers on my feeling
And my longings are all tied up in your heart.

My pledge is to love you
In all the way that you want me to
My pledge is to love you so
With a promise of not to let you go.

My pledge is to be with you
To share all the day, all the night
All the dawn and all tomorrows
'Coz this love that I have for you cannot be measured
And all I can do is to pledge
To promise
For forever
Only you and me together...

Immortality

Restless thougts by the memory of my past
Thinking the days so sudden that's gone so wild
I wonder if you never leave me, would it be us until now?
I wonder if you're here would it be us together?

I hope you're ok wherever you maybe
I hope you're happy whatever you may do
If there's a real second life, I still want to meet you
If there's a real second life, I would still like to be with you.

Things happened unexpected,
You was just beside me and the following day your.......
That was a very an abrupt departure of yours
And the only thing that's left are the memories...

Memories never dies, though people do...
Some people may forget you but never my heart
I'm still singing your song and still playing our love song
I'm still singing it until today, it's your immortality...

So that was who you are and was all you are
You chose to live the life you want to
And chose it the way you meant to 'til it lasts
And now if your one of those angels above
kept me away from harm :-)

You did stand for your dreams and meet all your goals
Stand for what you believed in and fight for it
You don't like good bye's for you don't believe for a thing to last
You just want to be remembered by who you are...

Well, the story of your life ends that way
But your memory with me will stay
Your breath was taken away that early
But in my heart you'll always stay.

Though some doesn't even seem to care when you left
But I know most wants you back
Though some seems to smile of your absence
But most seems to feel the missing piece.

Life has always an end and it happens that yours was ahead
Life, yes, has seem to have an unsolved mystery
But as you wish to, you'll be remembered by your immortality.
You'll always stay. Your memory will stay.

It will stay... your immortality...
Take care Eric, wherever you may be.

12 midnight

12 midnight but I can't close my eyes
My thoughts been flying away from my side
My mind keeps thinking about you and me
I don't want our story to end like a misery.

12 midnight I keep on thinking of you
Wondering if you're ok or thinking of me too
I am so restless don't wanna close my eyes
For you said I upsets you I didn't realize.

12 midnight and the time keeps on running
I wonder if your sleeping or wide awake and crying
I hope not 'coz it would break my heart
I hope that your ok, safe and sound and happy.

12 midnight the realm of sadness creeps
Contemplating the love, the love that we shared
I want this love to grow more, I want this love to ponder
I want us to be together ignore peculiarity that occur.

12 midnight I'm exhibiting my love for you to letter
The wisdom of love is here by means written
I'm drowning with my love resides in your heart
I'm feeling you my love, reflecting you tonight.

12 midnight I don't want this eyes shut
For this fire of wanting you keeps on burning inside
I wonder if your sleeping or twinging of pain
For the one that you love is erratically insane.

12 midnight, I indite this for you
Informing that I'm still here and still loving you so.
I hope your ok my dear, my baby be happy
For I'm enduring all the sadness and pain while away.

12 midnight, I won't shut my eyes
I'll let this night pass with eyes open and wide
For after 12 midnight a new day will arrive
Wag good bye to the dark night
And conquer the solitary light with smile so bright.

12 midnight...
Let the night pass.
12 midnight, my love for you feels right.
12 midnight, I still want you so bad.
12 midnight, forget the night!
Amidst the beauty of our love...

My Final Cry

Tonight is a different kind of night
For I swear not to cry again.
Tonight is a different kind of night
For now I would stop my tear from crying.
Tonight is a different kind of night
for I'll bury my love for you.
Tonight is a different kind of night
A momentum of letting go.

Tonight is my final cry...

Tomorrow, every thing's far different
Tomorrow, everything wouldn't be the same
Tomorrow, I'll say I don't love you
Tomorrow, it's been so nice to have known you.

Tomorrow, my love for you will die
Tomorrow, Loving you I'll deny
Tomorrow, our connection will be gone
Tomorrow, is the end of 'til the end of time.

Tomorrow, is just a memory of beyond forever
Tomorrow, is just a history of the one I love
Tomorrow, is letting go of carry on my dear
For tomorrow the room of solitude will subside.

Tonight when I close my eyes
I'll bring your memory with my sleep.

Tonight when I close my eyes
I'll dream of tattooed to be erased.

Tonight when I close my eyes
"I WANT" is to let go

Tonight when I close my eyes
I'll bring you in my sleep.

For tomorrow when I wake up
is a new smile on my face...

Tonight when I close my eyes I'll bring you inside
For I'll cry my final tear on your shoulder tonight.

When I close my eyes tonight it's our last
When I close my eyes tonight, it's our end
When I close my eyes tonight, dear we're over.
I'll soon close my eyes do take care...

My final good bye it starts here.

Thinkless, Pointless, Clueless, Useless, Boundless and LESS and LESS

The air blew it's cold, cold breeze
As the birds chirping on their nests
But my mind is still empty and think less.

Kids are running, yelling and playing
While mothers watching, laughing and smiling
But my sight sees nothing. It's pointless.

Clock keeps on ticking' fast
And faucets dropping' droplets of what?
My mind can't recognize it's useless.

My eyes are looking into something
Don't even know why I am staring
My eyes sees nothing, it's boundless.

My mind keeps on working
But nothing seems a bit remembering
My thought is just clueless.

The television's open
A song is playing with a sweet, sweet rhyming
But I can't understand a thing.

My heart seems bleeding
But there's nothing I am feeling
Am I just painless?

I'm thinking of something
But fades out and fades in
My mind is just careless.

I want to say something
Something
But that's not what I meant
My mind is just brainless

I want to say something
But my brain can't pick up the right thing
My mind is just careless.

I want to cry and cry and cry
But why should I?
Am I now a heartless?

How can I be a heartless when my heart still beats
I felt the heart beat
But I'm still clueless

I am still breathing
I'm still moving, I'm still thinking
But getting less and less and less...

My mind is now empty and I can't think of anything to say.
My mind isn't thinking and my brain is now empty
My brain is not functioning so there's nothing I can say
I can't think of anything becaue my mind is empty
And my brain's not functioning!!!!

Sorry....

LOVE MUST CONQUER ALL

Love requires no boundaries but honesty and trust
Love doesn't vary how long the relationship
But how you'll make it work.

Love can't move mountains
And can't stop the river from flowing
But love can conquer all.

Love doesn't need to be perfect but makes the boundary strong
Love isn't always right or wrong
But love accepts even the worsts faults and wrongs.

Love don't always have the right song co'z sometimes it fails
Love won't be love if your not together to fulfill
But love can fly even to the highest o'er sky.

Love isn't always pure 'coz it needs to be molded
Love isn't always at first sight
'Coz sometimes it's better developed
But love can be felt even if you can't be reach.

Love does matter the distance for love is sometimes insecure
But though love can conquer all
Both must fight and both must make it work
For love is like a treasure needs to be taken care of.

Love needs faith needs trust to avoid the rust
Love also neds to fight for the doom of fate that sometimes await
For in love, if one gives up and one surrender
The love would be called Game Over.
So keep going Love must Conquer...

Confused Heart

I woke up this morning feeling lonely
My heart seems empty, seem something's missing.
Theres like a hole of emptiness I can't describe
Damn! so confusing, why play with my heart???

I've been asking my self too many questions today
But the answers I can't find it just slip away
Hmmm... what does my heart really want?
I seem to found the answer but today it seems undone.

What do I have to do to solved this confused heart?
It seems calling his name but wanting others heart...
Did that dream sort to change something from my present?
Does my heart still holding on the pledge we've made?

I pledged to wait for him as he promised to be back
I hate broken vows, but it seems that I'm breaking it apart.

I want him near but the longing seems to disappear...
I need him here but the urge to seems letting go

Which is real what is true?
I don't want to go on but I want to continue...
My heart is so confused
Tell me what is real and what is true...

Dreaming of you

I dreamth of you last night
You waved goodbye and I cried
Your face and image was slowly fading away
But then I grabbed your hand hold you so tightly...

You hugged me so tight and we started our journey
From the first day we met and to the adventures we've made
You showed me how much you love me
And you reminded me the words that we both pledge...

You asked me why
You asked me what happened
You asked me what's wrong
You asked me if I'm over you...

I only answered you with a soft and gentle cry
You hold my hand, hugged me tight and whispered me softly
... Go on, just cry
I'm here now, on my shoulder you can cry...

I was just busy but never forgetting you
I was just away but never in my heart you went astray
For you know that I love you...

Your words sooths into my inner senses so deep so true

You asked me once more:

Are you over me?
Don't you love me anymore?
Remember those days
Remember those days
and remember our promises...

Please don't let go
Tell me that you still love me so
Tell me that I'm still the one that you love
Because in my heart, replacing you I can not.

I'm here now, I now have time
I want you back, I want you mine
Just be mine like the same old time.
Be mine...

I just replied with a simple smile and cry...

PS: My heart is confused.

Carry On My Dear

Carry on my dear, we'll be together pretty near
Distance indeed a hindrance yet somehow it's important.
For in distance I realized how much you mean to me
In distance I discover how much I want you near me.

Carry on my dear, strenghten up your patience a bit
For one day, one day when you wake up I'll be holding your face
Whisper words "I love you" with morning kisses and sweet embrace.

Carry on my dear for my heart beats for only you
You don't need to worry and no need to wonder
If my love fades or my love disappear
For my love for you is here, just here and getting stronger.

Carry on my dear, I am though far but near
You are far but near as well
For in my heart with me you dwell
So carry on my dear we'll be together very near.

I don't need to write a long letter
To tell you we'll be together
For I know that the special message I already delivered
We'll be together very near
So carry on my dear...

In love again

I had once a lover and fell in love
I had given him all that I have
Never been ready that -he could be-and could be not
Kept his memory tied it in my heart.

I shed a tear from no one's shoulder
Sleepless nights, your voice I hear
Your caress I remember, so loving and tender,
But you are gone how could I stop my tear.

I've wasted many times ignoring you so
Believing your love is fake and untrue
I'm living my life through pain and sorrow
And never realize there's someone like you.

I never thought that I could open my heart again
I didn't expect that I'd love again after the pain
I never imagine that I will welcome you in
You that I treated as an ordinary friend.

Gone

(Inane ramblings of my current state of mind)

by: Mae

Trapped like a seed
Sheltered by its mother's coat
Its embrace cold as winter's night
I am off to a distant land
Away from psychedelic

Created by this bizarre world
Gone to a faraway realm
Free from the curbs of reality

Darkness embodies the revoking silence
As everyone returns to their abode
Resuming their frenzied lives
Haunted by the bizarre convention has imposed

...........But I'm free..........

Some

Some people in time quit when they fall
But some people stay up, continue it all
Some people don't know what they've lost forever
But some people would retrieve now or never

Those low grades could boost up in time
Some people won't care what they'll have in line
But some people still strive yo make it great and straight
Just hope and pray that it won't be too late

Some people wear a heart of gold
They help those who need young and old
But some people won't care what's there for others
They can never be open to show up their colors

Some people are born great leaders at their years
They conquer the world and each others fears
But some people are their to change the earth
For the better in life you know what it's worth

We live in different places, in different ways
In different community and human race
Some have friends and great buds
But all is equal in the eyes of God.

In You

In your eyes I see
True love eternal and free
Overflowing with hope and gladness
You put an end to my sadness.

In your presence I feel
Security that's so real
Keeping me away from harm
I found shelter in your arms.

In you I see
Somebody I long to be
A face so kind and gentle
And a touch so tender, so lovable.

In you I found
The love I am abound
Embracing me so tight
Putting the restless me to sleep at night.

Under the Sea

Under the sea, pretty creatures there you'll see
A wonder that's full wonder, dive in, under cover.
Bring along with you your camera
Capture the beauty of these enchantra

For their world yet under complex
Dive under and you'll be amaze
Watch the colorful pretty creature
Swimming along with your adventure

But be careful, disturbance is failure
Of your experience being venture
For these pretty creatures sensitivity
Are enormous guarded duty.

Set-up your gear and begin to discover
This under treasure indeed a pure wonder
Check-up your tanks if full of air
For you only have little time for this offer.

Dive down and swim with them
But be careful, some are territorial you'll be in danger
Some are just quiet and tame
But some are joyous and proud of their being.

Come on let's hop down under
Swim and smile, enjoy and hover
Let bubbles flew on the surface
And let the boatmen know your down under and amazed.

Though travelling down is so limited
But to see the beauty oh my, it's worth it
Unfold the secrets untold and tell your story so bold
Share it with a smile so broad

If you've problems needed to solve
Swim down under problem's solved.
For those creatures are so adorable
Under water's pure, pure treasure!!!

To the one I love

A million miles away from me
Yet my love for you remains madly, truly, deeply.
I only wish to be with you everyday
To see you when the sun shines 'til it sets and no ray.

We argue, we compromise
We laugh though sometimes we cry.
Been crying for sometimes useless reason
I don't want to go on but I keep on holding on.

Why I love you this much?
A question that I can't answer even my heart.
Everytime I closed my eyes I see your face
Smiling at me with tenderness and grace.

I want to hold your face once more
To feel your kisses that I truly adore
To feel the love of making love
To ease the jealousy of this jealous heart.

Let me be the queen in your dream tonight
Let me tell you I want you and I need your love
Let's just make love all night long in this wary night
Let's put an end of mending our hearts
And let's bind our hearts with this love we have.

I love you and I really do
To be with you a dream I will pursue
Seeing you not slowly breaking my heart
Beeing with you is a happiness that money has not.

Let me love you baby
Let our dreams come true and be with each other's arms
Let our love overflow with passion and touch
With kisses and gentleness of this loving heart.

I want you more than I do from the start
Being away from you makes me crave more for your love
Can't go on without you, just cannot
I want you beside me your apart of my life.

Without you my life is worthless and empty
Without you my heart can beat no more
The beat will stop that sudden solid fast
For I have given you all of my heart.
Damn! all of my heart...

Room of Solitude

The majestic rain towering again
Pouring down it's sadness down from heaven
I wonder why the heaven cry
Is it because he wants to stop my lonely sigh?

Pour down, pour gently, pour softly heavy rain
But please be sure that ditches are well plained.

Come pour down unto me so I can hide
That my tears are flowing down, pains haden't subside.
Come pour unto me and let them not see
That the water that flows down is not from you but from me.

Let them think I'm happy though pains inside
Let them admire my smile the loneliness I hide
Let them hug me and share problems that they have
Don't let them know my hearts breaking, breaking inside.

Let me say I am strong do cover me from storm
Let me smile while I cry, a smile of alibi
Let them draw their strenght to me
Though I'm about to stumble and fall

Rain do pour, do cover my solitude.

Subside...

The sky is dark so is my heart
The breeze is cold it is so odd
The pain is soothing deep within
Now that your gone I'm not the same

It needs time to heal the wound
'Coz my heart's been broken half is gone.
I need to reflect make it whole
For half is gone and half my soul.

You don't need to worry and don't need to be sorry
For this is the end of our sweet, sweet story
But I'll forever keep the mem'ry we'd made
To reminisce those days creeps a smile on my face.

Yes, sometimes so sad when you chose to let go
Even though you know that your heart does love so
But somehow, only somehow it is better to hold not
For love is not a game and even pain has its own feeling.

I may be wrong or could be you
But my heart's been wounded from the first day and so
I tried to mend it but you keep on making me weak
Doing things I'm not over yet, you smashed it on my face.

Do go on, let's go on
For we both have our own lives to live we'll do our best
If you think I'm wrong, I'm sorry
But though forgive me ain't a song of my melody.

I'm still trying to move on and trying to be strong
For this wind that blew me now, or, let's say a storm
Is stronger than typhoon who ends my pasts forms
This is more stronger how will I recover?

But yah, no worries though its a question truly is
But I'm known as a survivor and strong
And mending my broken heart may be labelled by storm
But I still have it's half and I know I can go on.

So, I'll let go of my cry
I'll let go all of my sigh
For my pillow is here listening and wiping my tear
This is our end but my new beginning

My heart's still bleeding
My tears still flowing
But though that I am feeling
I know 1 day it will subside again...

My Song For Tonight ( Roxette )

It must have been love, but it's over now

Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, there's air of silence
In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away

It must have been love but it's over now
It must have been good but I lost it somehow
It must have been love but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside, I turned to water
Like a teardrop in your palm
And it's a hard winter's dayI dream away

It must have been love but it's over now
It must have been good but I lost it somehow
It must have been love but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Yeah, it must have been love but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now, I'm living without
It must have been love but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love but it's over now
It must have been love but it's over now

Mom, be here once again...

The day of forlornness I can still feel
Seeing back again the memory that hurts so real.
You left us with our crying eyes
Tears are trickling down our lonely sighs...

My mom, be here once more
For we all missed you our hearts are sores
My father and me the two of my brothers
We all want to be with you do ease our tears.

4 years had gone so wild
To our sudden lives your not in our side
How we all wish to bring you back alive
And we'll all be living happy with smile and jive.

My mom, let me embrace you my gentle coat
For you maybe feeling, feeling cold
My mom, let me make you smile
For you may be so sad for how a while.

My mom, let me whisper you "I love you"
Do listen to my sorrow...
My cries are floating in the midway sky
Wishing you'll hear it do make me smile.

My mom, listen to me gently
You will always and forever remain in our memory,
My mom, do rest safely
For we'll be together again one day...

I have cried a million tears
When you left us full of fears
But though we know it was for better
Still we can't stop we did suffer.

My mom, even for a night
when all our eyes are shut behind close doors
Do visit us even in our dreams
So we can be together... be here once again...

Little Creature

Little creature, come, run hide
For you may be eaten, crashed and died.
Too little, too tiny indeed but still have life
Sneak out slowly from your hiding place at night.

Little are they who valued your worth
For they see you through off spring fold
Never care, never noticed, never wonder
If your a cricket a bug or whatever.

For some, insects are just insect
Transparent, see through and unwanted
But for some who needs your service
Your an angel that heaven had sent.

Work slowly and carefully little one
For the giants might arrived.
They'll stump, they'll clasped, they'll make you run
But be careful their hearts are gone.

Some would carelessly take a glance
Some would look at you but not beyond.
You too have life and do take care
Left and right so you do stare.

Go on with your life though strive and hide
Be careful and show your might.
In trouble though chirp for help
But yet be strong and show your strenght...

My little one take care.
For in mother nature your dearly dear.
Indulge your beauty to those who can't see
And let them see it even me...

Be home once again

I, that hath flown to distant land

Across valleys and accross thy o'ers

Here though suffering from aboad

But to my family that hath, I endured...

To thee that I have been carried

All the sufferings, loneliness to thy I loved

But though this tears hath worth thy while

For I see in their faces pretty smile...

To thy that I have loved,

My family is always in my heart.

Am I, yet far too sudden

But in my heart my beloved are well kept hidden.

For my treasure are thy happiness

To give them everything thy wanted.

To see their happy faces

With love, with hope, with guidance with courage.

I, have flown this far...

Not seeing you from a long, long while.

But my love always keep in mind

That your happiness is what I have ever wanted.

One day, one day in God's will...

I knew I can touch your faces pretty well

Flesh and flooding thoughts and laughter

That will of course fill our room with joyous tear.

I know one day, one day, we'll all be together

Loving, sharing, caressing each other.

Thy love for me I have kept,

In my heart it is locked and sealed.

For I long to see your happy faces once again

Thy God's will I know it will.

Thee that hath I love take care,

For I'm in distant land but have no fear

For God above keeps me away from danger

But gives me comfort makes me stronger.

I am away yet my heart hath stay

For thou I shall comeback thee wait for me.

Thou to God though seek and pray for safety

Have no doubt, have no worry

For I'll be home, be home someday

To my ever beloved loving family...

Another day

I woke up this day, another day.
I opened my eyes new paradise.
I think of days that passed and thanked for it.
For I'm still blessed that a new day had arrived.

Staring at the meadow nearby a butterfly flew
What a nice sight of view a flower show
A wind blew smoothly, making it dance
What a wonderful day! bright and sunny.

Clouds seems dancing up above the sky
Oh, how I wish I have wings so I can just fly
Flying with the birds dancing in the sky
Racing through their highway, up, up and fly!

World is just awesome! truly indeed.
World full of wonders, has it's own universe.
Different kind of creatures, adorable indeed.
Come on let's wander the wonders of this given universe!!!

Let's fly, let's float, let's dance.
Let's swim, let's sing lets hover and cover.
Let's walk,let's crawl, let's run and jump!
Let's clap, let's stop. let's listen and stump.

Hooray, hooray! universe bold and gay.
Swaying stories and history
Lullaby's on the bay.

Sunny sun glitters light
Twinkling beauty to our eye sight.
Sunny sun gives it's ray
Oh, my! come oh my! smile at me sweetly...

Never ending wonder,
Of this beautiful universe,
be thankful for the new day
For sometimes, sun won't give it's ray.

Be thankful, be happy of your new born day
Everyday is a new beginning
Of memory and new story
So seat back and relax enjoy the beauty embark.

Today is the new day
To be happy, to smile and be gay.

Tattoed in my mind

The day I met you was so unforgettable
The way you held my hand, so gentle...
I can never forget that smile in your face,
you smiled at me with passion and gladness...

I have felt how much I was loved by you
I appreciated it and I'm as well loving you so.
But everything really seems to have an end
and in my memory your floating, screaming my name...

I can't take you off my mind
I can't see a thing am I that blind?
I refused to see the paradise beyond
What's the reason of this sudden changed of mind?

But I....
still loving you...
In my mind,
Your tattoed...

But I...
still wanting you
In my dreams,
your tattoed...

But I...
still needing you
In my heart,
your tattoed...

But I...
still longing of you
In my life,
your tattoed...

But I...
still love you so,
I love you,
You're tattoed...

A right time

I heard the tickin' of the clock

And the beat of my heart...

Song keeps on playing

In my mind you are floating

My thought have been calling,

have been calling your name...

Tell me what's wrong to right

But I don't want to argue or fight.

Tell me I'm crazy nor insane

But there's always a right time and timing...

When I say I don't want to talk about it,

it means I don't...

Sometimes it's very important to wait

wait for the right time to talk...

Sometimes the best way to end an argument

is to walk away.

To avoid a fight, be careful, be softly, be gently...

There is a always a right time for everything,

a right time to argue

a right time to fight

a right time to listen

a right time to talk

a right time to walk

a right time to say sorry

a right time your not.

A right time to forgive

and a right time to be forgiven.

A right time to cry,

and a right time to smile.

There's always a right time.

A right time to compromise

A right time to emphasize

a right time to critisize

a right time for good bye's

a right time to step down

a right time to frown

a right time to gnaw

and a right time to let go...

Remember that there's always a right time.

And if I said I'll do,

it means I'll do.

But if you never believed it,

there's no use to continue.

You can let go,

'Coz I'm letting you go...

Let go or Continue...

The magic on my thoughts became real when I met you,

The magic had came true...

The fantasies I was fantasizing were revealed the moment I met you,

Fantasies had came true...

The wonders I wondered made real the moment I met you,

Wonders did came true...

The rolling thunders of kisses I felt in your kisses,

Thunders on my nerves...

Weak bone and chilling spine were your touches definition,

Your touch turns me on...

You kissed me and my blood's boiling with affection,

affection to go on...

Just go on...

Just go on...

But, wait! stop!

I don't need you to break my heart...

But, wait! stop!

We can end this, let's get part...

I don't need to feel the pain

And I don't want to cry again...

Even storms cries thru blowing wind,

Even thunder screams, beats and drumming,

Even lightning shows it's feeling

and cut tree trunks into dusting polluted thing...

What more me?

I'm vulnerable you see...

Even oceans trumpets a huge huge wave

the forlornness you can even felt...

Even rivers overflows to downstream of anger and gnaw...

And raindrops heavy creating a blow...

What more me?

I just loved you as I used to be...

Do you really need to hurt me?

Nope! cannot be...

I've too much of pain and enough of that...

Coz the snow is coming with it's warm gentle touch...

Wait for the hurricane to turn you around

And see the different view from here and beyond...

Let go if you feel like your feeling the pain again...

Let go if you're being trampled like "that" same.

Let go if you can't carry on the pain.

Let go if your heart's being broken...

But, wait! just wait...

Do remember that real happiness

comes and occurs in a very scarce period of time

and if you feel like he's your everything

and that he means the world to you,

Then don't be stupid to let go...

The decision is all up you.

Continue or let go...

Just let me cry...

Are you numb not to feel my pain...

Can't you feel that I'm in vain???



How dare you to ask me what's wrong!

How dare you break my heart so wrong!!!



I loved you and it was real and true...

But you don't deserve it... do you???



I was really happy being with you

And I even decided not to let you go...



I thought it was real

But your just someone who drives me ill.



I decided to live my life for you

To share you the world that I thought was true.



But what have you done???

You're making me cry ,

are those passions a lie

and gone with the lullaby of my cry ?



I am hurt.

Deeply hurt.

Wounded deep.



I'm in tear.

I've no fear.

Leave! I don't care.



I'd rather take the pain at a time

Than be buried by the pains all the time.



I'm not numb!

My heart feels pain.

My feeling gets hurt

and my heart feels it.



I'm not perfect

But I know when to show

and I know when not to.



I'm living my present but I know where to leave the past.

I'm dreaming you for my future

but not with those you have once adore!



You said you trust me,

But have you considered my feeling within?



You said it doesn't mean anything...

But have you tried to ask me if it's ok?



You want me to listen

But have you heard my heart screaming in pain???



I've decided to leave everything for you

But now, I don't know...



You told me I'm the present and the future,

but why drag back your past to the present

that's suppose to be ours?



Past must remain and stay in your past.

Put your past behind.

Leave the past where it belongs.

Where you can sing its songs.



I don't want your past to be in your present and in my presence.

I never asked to your past to be forgotten

but just let them stay where they are suppose to lay.



But now, where're our dream?

It's dying while I'm crying...



Now where are our plans?

It's almost gone...



Track this track of time...

For my feelings and love wouldn't be the same after my tear...



Try to stop the time

For it might not come back if I'll say

it's over and we're done...



Please let me cry...

Just let me cry this time...

My Piece of Anger

I wrote this piece several months ago in response to a message I received regarding a post of mine on another website.

To you who send me message that I COPIED A WORK
YOU ARE JUST JEALOUS!!
'Coz I can write better than you!
To you who assumes 'TIS ISN'T MY WORK

DAMN! You can't just write a literary the way that I do!

I am me and you are you
You can not be me and I will never be you!

'Coz I am SMART and YOU is DOLT
'Coz I am GOOD
and YOU are ODD

'TIS PIECE IS FOR YOU!

Go on, read and envy
For after you read this,you'll regret and feel dismay

Because I have the GUTS to share what I feel.
I have the GUTS to show what is real.
I have the GUTS to say this is ME,
And expresses it all in a piece of a letter
THE YOU WHO IS SO JEALOUS!!!
'Come on' take a glimpse, even stare,read and study my work
'TIS PIECE IS MADE ONLY FOR YOU
So you'll know that the hand and mind who works is ME and MINE

and not a SO DAMN YOU!

Explore, wander the work transforms into letter

TO YOU WHO SAYS I CANNOT WRITE,
TO YOU WHO SAYS "DELETE ALL YOUR BLOGS"
This is the other side of me...
I'm sorry but...
DAMN YOU!

You have no right to drag me down
You can not be the one who'll turn me out
From writing which is a part of my life!
Through this I can reveal
The feeling I have which is so real

And you who says I can't
I'm challenging you face to face let's write!

Exert an effort from your own
So you'll know the feeling, how's it to be judged
by the piece of work on your own.

GOT IT???!!!!!