Pretending

Tears flow
my pillows are wet
I pretended my eyes just hurt.

My mind is floating
didn't hear what his talking
I pretended my head's just aching.

He whispered me softly
how much he have loved me
I closed my eyes - sleeping- pretending.

He made love at me
I faked a moan so he won't see that my eyes are
filled with tears of hunger and crave
to the one I truly loved and that one is not he...

He hugged me tight
I'm imagining that the hand that clasped mine
is not he's but to the one that I have loved...

But how can I break it to him?
How can I stop pretending when I know the feeling
of getting hurt and how hard is it in pain.
how can I stop pretending?